| Take a razor - cut it deep,
drops of blood before I sleep,
if I die before I wake,
life was just too cruel to take.
Relief is felt and blood flows red,
feeling alive instead of dead.
Self-hatred, anger, guilt flow out,
total satisfaction without a doubt.
Fighting depression everyday,
insecurities & fears along the way.
Low self-esteem, feelings of despair,
but nobody ever said life was fair.
Scars tell a story of the pain inside,
revealing my secrets I try and hide.
Showing the misery a lot of us share,
hoping and praying that someone will care.
Maybe if you look deep in my eyes,
you'll see the child behind the cries,
& the things that have murdered her soul,
all the self-hatred that's taking it's toll.
I numb our brains to stay alive,
whatever I have to do to survive.
I cut myself and burn my skin,
to punish myself & get rid of sin.
Help me rip out the crazy thoughts inside,
help me try & find the part of me that died.
Help me like myself again,
stick with me and be a true friend.
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Started a new trimester today…man I got really junk kine classes….
…and see wat’z up wit uz
…so yah….hopefully I can see da juon 2…but yahz….
z, t@ryn